i have nothing to say.

allow me to introduce myself.
i'm the girl from every paper back novel. the hopeless romantic with a dream. the movie character you never got to know. the face in the crowd that you never see.
the girl who wakes up every morning with no thoughts. whose situation changes like the wind. yes. no. yes. she comes downstairs, helpless from the start. powerless to stop the pain.
"stop dying."
the girl watching her world fall apart. piece by piece. holding shattered reasons in her hand, and leaving un finished sentences the way they are. unfinished. the girl with no meaning. the girl with no name.
the bitter one. autumn girl . the one who lives to see the leaves fall from the trees, the brilliant colours. red, gold. her favourites. walking through the rain, smiling in spite of herself. because the rain is so much prettier than the sun. the blinding sun. lying sun.
talentless girl. no choices. only decisions.
the single girl. the lonely-but-not-willing-to-admit it girl. the emo girl. watching the people in her life grow and change, while she stays the same. plain as day. the girl with a warped image. who can't tell you what she looks like, because she doesn't know. twice as big as the rest of the world. the girl who loves from a distance. scared of her own shadow. of boys. 0f pain. of you. the girl who lets herself slide into old habits because it's comfortable. it's safe. the girl whose weight fluxiates with her mood, and whose mood fluxiates without circumstance. the girl who sits beside you in almost every class. on every bus. in every theater.
the happy girl. the sad girl. the lovely girl. the ugly girl. thats me. i'm all of the above. you just never knew. i never said.